It's never really over. Nooo.?

I just need to wake up. There's no perfect guy out there for me. I must be blind. He's never gonna come. I believed that for so long. There's no guy. I wish there was but nooo there's not! I just need to wake up and face the facts! I've liked so many guys and i've been in so many sucky relationships it makes me cry! The guy i said was a player has bad family problems and no one knows who he really is. I feel bad for calling him a player. I'm gonna talk to him on monday. The guy i really like loves another girl. I should just give up. The guy i thought was the 1 ignored me for 3 months. I'm now listening to sober by kelly clarkson. I don't know what to do. Life's complicated period! What should i do? I'm tired of just waiting around for a guy to come and pick up all the sadness that has happened in my life and make me the happiest i've ever been. please. what should i do? I just realized the obvious. I'm not confident. I wish i was. I thought i was. Nope.